Jamie Otis Shares Emotional Tribute to Son as Due Date Approaches (PHOTO)
The holiday season is meant to be a happy time to celebrate with your loved ones — but it won’t be the same this year for Jamie Otis and Doug Hehner.
The Married at First Sight couple was looking forward to an especially exciting time when they found out their first child was due right before Christmas.
Sadly, as we now know, that was taken from them in late July when they tragically miscarried their baby boy.
Now, in the weeks leading up to son Johnathan Edward’s due date, Jamie is remembering those good feelings and the child she lost with an emotional Instagram post.
On Monday, December 5, the Bachelor alum shared a pic of herself and hubby Doug earlier in the summer. In it, she’s wearing a bikini and showing off her bare baby bump.
"It wasn't my choice to survive without you. So I will spend my life living for you and honoring you," she starts the caption.
She continues, “I was so happy to have you in my belly. I was 3 months pregnant with you in this photo ... little did I know a month later I'd lose you.”
"It wasn't my choice to survive without you. So I will spend my life living for you and honoring you." I was so happy to have you in my belly. I was 3 months pregnant with you in this photo ... little did I know a month later I'd lose you. The heartache since you left has been excruciating. Johnny, I can't help but think of what you'd look like if you were able to stay in there safe & sound & come to us like you were supposed to for Christmas. I'll always love & honor you. You're my angel baby. Even though we only met briefly & I only got to hold you & give you kisses once - I still miss you. I'll always, always love you. #AngelBaby #babyboy #JohnathanEdward #miscarriage #neverforget #3months
If that wasn’t enough of a gut punch, the rest of her note will have you grabbing for the tissues.
“Johnny, I can't help but think of what you'd look like if you were able to stay in there safe & sound & come to us like you were supposed to for Christmas,” she finishes the heartbreaking tribute.
“I'll always love & honor you. You're my angel baby.”
Over the last few months, the Hehners have continued to remain positive in moving forward, while still holding onto their boy. Take, for instance, that incredibly moving photo they posted in October of their premature baby…
October is pregnancy and infant loss awareness month. I can't sleep well tonight so I blogged about my sweet boy, Johnathan Edward. I realize there is a great stigma associated with sharing photos of your baby who was born too early and has already gone to heaven so I want to say sorry if this offends you. However, if there's one thing my husband has taught me it's this: "Don't live life trying NOT to offend anyone and trying to please everyone." I hope by me sharing my sweet boy, Johnny (as Doug and I call him), you'll realize that he's a harmless, helpless baby who deserves to be remembered, not hidden away because his image may offend someone. And if you've lost your baby early, please know that you're not alone. Unfortunately, 1 in 4 women are affected by this. Yet, no one talks about it. I hope this can change. I'll be the first in my circle. You be the first in yours. My prayers go out to everyone who has lost their sweet baby too early. Link to my blog & Johnny's photo in my bio. #miscarriageawareness #miscarriage #miscarriagesupport #mafs #marriedatfirstsight
We commend the pair for sharing such a potentially controversial post, one the 30-year-old gal is aware of due to the “stigma associated with sharing photos of your baby who was born too early and has already gone to heaven.”
Jamie’s fears seemed to be for naught, though.
After she shared this, many fellow moms who have suffered a similar loss rallied around her in the comments section.
“I too delivered my son at 17 weeks,” shared one fan. “I also found it cathartic to write it out. My heart breaks for you.”
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