Troian Bellisario on Her Eating Disorder: “I Couldn’t Get Anyone to Understand”
The Pretty Little Liars star is opening up about her personal fight with anorexia in her upcoming film, Feed, which she wrote and directed.
In Interview magazine, the actress revealed how her new film helped her friends and family understand her eating disorder.
"I found there were so many people who thought that it was about losing weight or being skinny, and I couldn't quite get them to understand that it was about control on a very, very literal level," she said.
"I couldn't get anyone — even the people who loved me the most, even my boyfriend or my mother or my father — to understand what that experience was truly like for me."
The 31-year-old, who is married to Suits actor Patrick J. Adams, first opened up about her eating disorder in Seventeen magazine.
"I started self-harming when I was a junior. I would withhold food or withhold going out with my friends, based on how well I did that day in school," she revealed in January 2014.
"[I] didn't know what was right and what was wrong. … So, I think I created this bizarre system of checks and balances to create order in my world. But it really backfired."
She also opened up about the disease in a PSA leading up to the 2016 election.
"With anorexia, a lot of it is about presenting a front of, "Everything is OK, while you're slowly killing yourself," she revealed.
"Gone were the days when I was just a happy, carefree kid who was running around, and suddenly I just felt this inability to interact with people and to nourish myself.
“If I had been just shunned to the side as not having 'real problems,' I don't know that I would be living today.”
We’re proud of you for opening up about your struggles, Troian!
Pretty Little Liars airs Tuesdays at 8 p.m. ET on Freeform.